DARKNESS NEVER COMES



BY AMBER NICOLE RICHARDS


Comfort finds me easily this night, but the darkness never comes.

Electric images dance on the walls and the television softly hums.


A sidelong glance finds Mel Gibson setting Scotland free.

It's not the reason I lie awake, or maybe, it could be.


A simple press of a button sends the images away,

And I'm left alone with my thoughts and reruns from my day.


I think of what I should have done and what I could have said,

And why a normal guy like me wears lingerie to bed.


I tell myself I like the feel, but in my heart I know there's more.

The clothes are just a part of it, that much I know for sure.


I wear them and I feel alive, it lightens up my heart.

In my soul I know I'm feminine, I just want to look the part.


A tear drop wells up in my eye for the girl I cannot be,

I shut my eyes to trap it there, and the darkness finally takes me.